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haha…everyone says that when new year approach we should be ready with our new year resolution.. hell no!! is it just me who found out that i’m in a lot of mess instead of indulging myself with new spirit or mind setting or wutsoever they called it…instead happily celebrating new year, i’m stuck on the bed doing nothing!! by the beginning of the new year i try to look inside and try to learn about myself…what do i get? all that i found is that i’m broke and i do have to worry bout the money as i have to pay the kitas..i found that i’m kinda useless..kinda not in the condition that a medical student should be…i found myself..omg!! i’m worried!!!! help me!!! haha…what the hell did i just write, it is so not coordinated..full of junk…wutever..i just feel like writing…aren’t writing the best way to soothe your soul??

okay…ere we go…i’m wondering..in every1 blog, why must we put up our complain in the world??? and i’m 1 of those wo doing it..haha..lyfe’s weird…putting up ur [robz to the public..but i dun really think people will read up ur blog anyway..ngahaha..well, usually i’ll buy english novels to be read in the emergency mode a.k.a depressed tyme..but wtf?????????????????? i couldn’ find any english novels ere!!!! even ‘angels & demons’ r changed to ‘malaikat & jembalang’!! how weird is dat?? oh god..help me..could ease up these thing a lil bit..i’m not sure if i’m nearing to the limit…WTF!!!!!!oyt, stop bitching around and stop swearing. but i juz can’t help it!!!!!WTF!!!!!

well, how to put all of this damn piece together? why in all places available in the world, i’ve been thrown 5 hours away to indonesia where i have to follow 3 damn stages of orientation?? satu udah…nape mesti byk2??? and i’m lost in my world..dunno wuts happening..wut shud i do? im really lost..god help me…i dun want to stay at pesantren!!!! damn!! hate my lyfe!!! i want to be a baby who dun have to care bout the world n always being cared by other people…call me spoiled bratz or wutever..i dun care…hate trouble…but i must face lyfe..fergie sings it as if it was easy..big girls dont cry konon…yeah ryte…for you dats maybe true..damn i wish im a rock star n all i have to worry is what should i wear to the party instead of other things..ngaaa

uwaa..dunno where to start..all i know is dat evryone is asleep n i’m wide awake…aargh…my leg is very itchy as the mosquitoes rushing in a herd to attack my legs..wuuuu…tomorrow got class early in the morning..ngaaa…dat’s the deducting points of being a med student..sumtymes i wonder if it’d better if i take mass comm? hahaha..i won’t make a single damn penny out of it i think…why do i got this laziness inside me?? i hate it..all my friends are studying every night while i’m just fooling around and try to make a hell out of them..haha..dat’s just me i guess…i really need to remind myself that i’m a student in a uni now..not a school kid who loves hanging around..get a grip of yourself fera!!! ganbatteneh…